Saturday, October 20, 2018

Author interview: Cinda Stevens Lonsway

Cinda Stevens Lonsway is a spiritual counselor, facilitator, and public speaker who wrote a memoir about her own experience surviving and recovering from trauma.

Cinda recently answered questions for Rose City Reader about her book, her work with trauma survivors, and what comes next.

How did you come to write I Know Now?

I Know Now is really a book about spiritual awakening brought on by trauma and PTSD. I began writing about my experience when in September of 2014, I heard a voice; clear and loud that called my name. It woke me up from a deep sleep. The voice said, “Cinda. It is time.” I knew exactly what it meant. I needed to tell my story of the attack that happened to me when I was 19 and the profound healing that I experienced years later.

You tell your story in three parts. Can you explain a bit about your path to healing?

Part One of the story is titled THE ATTACK. I go into vivid detail about the series of events that led up to and during the night of the attack and how I prevented this violent man from raping and killing me. It continues with two months of the man stalking my roommate and me.

Part Two is titled THE HEALING. After the attack, I go into a world class case of denial. Once I became a mother, I felt more vulnerable than ever and this triggered what I know now to be PTSD. Back then, I thought I was losing my mind. After an awful night of reliving my memories, I went to bed defeated. I gave up on life, assuming that the darkness, the demons of my past, would come and consume me. But instead of the devil arriving to take me away, God did, and he showed himself in the body of my perpetrator. I was then guided through a profound, mystical ritual of healing.

Part Three is titled THE AWAKENING. This brings the story into current day. I write about my writing experience and how awful and difficult reliving these horrific events are. That voice that woke me up to tell me to write also told me to look for the signs. Part three is all about the signs, synchronicity, messages that I missed along the way. I see them now for the first time and they are mind blowing.

Your memoir is intensely personal – did you have any qualms about sharing so much?

Yes, I did, and I had a lot of resistance to writing about it. But, I could not deny that voice that woke me up and told me it was time. I trusted whatever energy this voice came from, it helped me heal before, so I trusted it would keep me safe this time.

Who is your intended audience and what do you hope your readers will gain from your book?

Each part could technically have a different target market. Part One, gives young people tools in how to keep themselves safe in a dangerous situation. Part Two, gives anyone who has been affected by trauma a way to heal. Part Three, gives more healing power for trauma victims and it offers a beautiful story of how to open one’s awareness to their own spiritual awakening.

What did you learn from writing your book – either about the subject of the book or the writing process – that most surprised you?

At my first book signing, a woman asked me, “So, what do you know now?” I had to think on that for a moment. There is a final chapter that answers that question, but I did not want to read that chapter. So . . . as I thought on this question, something really profound came to me:

When I used to share my story, I would tell it in a way that would make it scary enough to elicit a response. Yet, I was always careful not to reveal too much of the truth, in fear that I would trigger my own dark emotions. I knew just when to stop with the story telling when I would internally hit a barrier that ran across the center of my gut. When my story would reach this point, I would feel my gut clench and I would quickly end my story by adding the part where the victim out smarts the villain and wins the day.

Now that my story is written, in detail, when I go to tell it, I can’t find that barrier anywhere inside of me. It is gone. I can travel all the way down to my big toe and back up and find nothing. I had no idea that by writing my story out of me and then sharing it with others, I would have healed myself in ways completely unexpected. And it is awesome! I know now!

Did you consider turning your own experience into fiction and writing the book as a novel?

Yes, as a matter of fact, I have many rough drafts and attempts at doing just that. But none of it rang true enough. I wonder . . . if maybe, I just needed to heal more and the only way to do that was to write my story.

What can friends and family of trauma victims do to support them?

Number One: believe them.

Number Two: believe them.

Number Three: if the time comes that they are ready to share. Sit there and let them tell you everything. Sit there and no matter how awful it is for you, remember that it didn't happen to you, it isn't about you. Don’t try to fix it, it already happened, nothing can change it. Just listen, don’t judge, don’t correct, just sit, shut up, and listen. The goal is to help them get it out of their memory cells that are carrying the trauma. The reason why writing my story helped to heal me even after I thought I was completely and fully healed, is because I knew that my family and friends would read it and finally my truth would be known. It matters, it really really matters, that someone else on this planet knows my truth.

What resources would you recommend for survivors of sexual violence? How about for their loved ones and supporters?

I believe in healing the whole body. So, in order to heal completely, you need to heal the body, the mind/emotions and the spirit/soul. If one doesn’t heal the trinity together, one won’t heal. I had to heal my body from the stress that caused IBS, adult acne, weight loss I couldn’t afford to lose, back issues. I had to heal my mind/emotions from PTSD, nightmares, triggers. I had to heal my spirit from hate, anger, fear, betrayal. For my body, I sought out acupuncturists, massage, nutritionists. I never sought out professional help as in a therapist, and if I had known that that was an option, I could have saved myself a lot of heartache and years of personal torture. Instead, years later, I trusted my spiritual guidance and found a spiritual counselor, who acted as a therapist.

What’s next? What are you working on now?

I had a few Beta readers tell me after they read the book, that they were hoping for more “Cinda teachings.” They wanted to learn more about my spiritual healings, the healings I now guide others through and help them with. So, I’m working on a book of ritual to help people heal from a variety of issues. I have one children’s book published: Tommy T and the Pea that Got Away. Another book coming out in a few months titled: ROAR! which is based on an article I wrote that went viral in 2010. And I am working on three novels. Yay!!!!



Friday, October 19, 2018

Book Beginning: The Towers of Trebizond



Thanks for your patience! I thought I had a post scheduled and apparently I didn't. Operator error!


"Take my camel, dear," said my aunt Dot, as she climbed down from this animal on her return from High Mass.

The Towers of Trebizond by Rose McCaulay. I've been looking forward to this comedy classic for a long time!

Please join me every Friday to share the first sentence (or so) of the book you are reading, along with your initial thoughts about the sentence, impressions of the book, or anything else the opener inspires. Please remember to include the title of the book and the author’s name.

EARLY BIRDS & SLOWPOKES: This weekly post goes up Thursday evening for those who like to get their posts up and linked early on. But feel free to add a link all week.

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TIE IN: The Friday 56 hosted by Freda's Voice is a natural tie in with this event and there is a lot of cross over, so many people combine the two. The idea is to post a teaser from page 56 of the book you are reading and share a link to your post. Find details and the Linky for your Friday 56 post on Freda’s Voice.


Tuesday, October 16, 2018

Teaser Tuesday: The Book of Dirt by Bram Presser

With the occupation had come a shift in the atmosphere of Biskupcova Street. Eyes no longer met, trust was undermined.

-- The Book of Dirt by Bram Presser. Australian author Bram Presser creates his grandparents' Holocaust story out of family history, imagination, old photographs, and ephemera in this heart-warming first novel.

Teaser Tuesdays is hosted by The Purple Booker, where you can find the official rules for this weekly event.

Monday, October 15, 2018

Mailbox Monday: Art & Thrillers

Two completely different books came into my house last week: a new art book and a new thriller.

-- Mary Chomenko Hinckley: Material Evolution. Mary’s blue coyote looks pretty awesome prowling the urban forest of my front yard!

PORTLAND EVENT TONIGHT: Mary will be “in conversation” with Paul J. Karlstrom, discussing Art in the Era of Artificial Intelligence: “An exploration of the imposition of technology on nature and the artist’s response.”

⭐️ PNCA - Pacific Northwest College of Art: TONIGHT, October 15, 2018 at 6:00 PM

-- Absolute Proof by Peter James. In a break from his Roy Grace police series, this Dan Brown-like "code" thriller has the hero chasing clues to find absolute proof of the existence of God.

I'm listening to the audiobook read by Hugh Bonneville and he makes the story come alive.

Thanks for joining me for Mailbox Monday, a weekly "show & tell" blog event where participants share the books they acquired the week before. Visit the Mailbox Monday website to find links to all the participants' posts and read more about Books that Caught our Eye.

Mailbox Monday is graciously hosted by Leslie of Under My Apple Tree, Serena of Savvy Verse & Wit, and Martha of Reviews by Martha's Bookshelf.

Saturday, October 13, 2018

Author Interview: Bram Presser

Australian author Bram Presser's new novel creates his grandparents' Holocaust story out of family history, imagination, old photographs, and ephemera.

Bram recently answered questions for Rose City Reader about his new book, Holocaust memory, and writing in general.

How did you come to write The Book of Dirt?

My grandparents never spoke about their Holocaust experiences so, growing up, we constructed comfortable narratives around their survival. A few years after they died, a newspaper article was published claiming that my grandfather had been selected by the Nazis to be the literary curator of Hitler’s Museum of the Extinct Race. I became obsessed by this story, and by the realization of how little I actually knew about a man who I had loved so deeply, so I set off to find out what had actually happened. From there it spiraled out of control in the most intriguing possible way.

Your book is called a novel, but reads in part like memoir and uses historical documents. How much is your family’s actual history and how much is fiction?

That’s a difficult question to answer. The book is essentially the story of my search to find their stories set against a reimagining of what happened. I’d say the search narrative is almost exactly as I experienced it, except for some minor changes for timescale and the like, plus one major invention to set up the whole dirt part of the book. The reimagining is probably more historically accurate than I had first thought, given that it is built on documents, photos, records and stories I was told. So, it is a dramatization of either what happened, or my best guess based on the evidence. But there is also a strong magical realist thread that weaves its way through the story and that is pure creative license. I am really enamored of Czech and Jewish myth and legend, as well as the fable as a storytelling device, so it was inevitable that they would make a strong showing in whatever I write. Also, I found that writing my family as fictional characters gave me a stronger sense of who they were and how their experiences might have actually felt. There is an essential truth in fiction that I wanted to find that a simple historical excavation could not possibly provide.

How did you choose the title?

I came up with it very early on in the process. After reading the newspaper article, I was struck by the idea of my grandfather finding a hollowed-out book with a pile of dirt inside that might have been the golem’s heart. So initially the title was literal. As I dug deeper, travelling the world, collecting whispers, anecdotes, documents, even gossip – a lot of it what we would colloquially call “dirt” – it seemed even more appropriate. Moreover, the golem seemed the perfect metaphor for writing about my grandparents (or anyone you’ve known and loved) – the idea that I was creating them from the clay of evidence and breathing life back into them with words.

Who is your intended audience and what do you hope your readers will take away from your book?

I hope anyone interested in memory, identity and the way we tell stories will find something in it to engage and challenge them. Although it is set in the context of the Holocaust, I don’t think of it as a Holocaust book. It’s more about how we much we can really know the people we love, and the way in which we recreate their lives every time we think about them.

Your use of black and white photographs and ephemera throughout the book remind me of Austerlitz by W. G. Sebald, another novel about the search for family taken to the Theresienstadt concentration camp. Were you inspired by Sebald?

Yes and no. My greatest inspiration, stylistically, was the Croatian novelist Daša Drndić who came to be a mentor of sorts through the writing of The Book of Dirt. Sebald is the gold standard for documentary fiction and helped me to understand the use of image and object as a narrative device but Drndić takes it to an almost hyper level in her novel Trieste. Reading that was my lightbulb moment when I realized how this story ought to be told. It’s interesting that you mention Austerlitz, though, because recognizing the similarities in style and the Theresienstadt angle, I actually had to consciously ensure that they weren’t too alike, especially given that we were working from a lot of the same source material.

What did you learn from writing your book – either about the subject of the book or the writing process – that most surprised you?

Working on this book, I found myself regularly surprised by what I found. Understanding the camps as more than just death factories, but places where people made lives in horrific circumstances, and built tight, often transient communities was quite inspirational. On a personal level, learning that my great grandmother, Františka (my grandmother’s mother), who I knew when I was a kid – she was a tiny, crumpled old Czech woman – was an incredible hero who risked everything to keep her family alive just blew me away. She was a convert, so she wasn’t taken to the camps, and she did so many incredible things from back in Prague to make sure her daughters survived. I set out to write about my grandfather, but it was Františka that stole my heart and really became the focus of the book.

What do you think people today can learn from the stories of Holocaust survivors?

Decency, humanity, resilience, courage, the importance of fighting for what is right and nipping intolerance in the bud. The understanding that perfectly functional societies can devolve into murderous dysfunction (or hyper-function), that perfectly ordinary people can do terrible things, that hatred and division can lead to catastrophe.

Do you think it is important to keep Holocaust memory alive and why?

Absolutely. Ever more so at the moment, where violent division seems to be the political norm across the globe. We’re only seventy-five years on, and so many of what I’d have hoped were the lessons of the Holocaust seem to have been thrown by the wayside. Hatred and scapegoating is being normalized. It feels as if we’re already on the path of the famous “First they came for the socialists…” poem. Now is the time to stand up and fight against the tide of fascist populism.

Who are your three (or four or five) favorite authors? Is your own writing influenced by the authors you read?

Wow, where to begin? I’d probably give you a different answer every time you asked me, but today I’ll say Franz Kafka, Jesse Ball, JM Coetzee, Magda Szabo and Daša Drndić. I’m not sure how overtly they influence me, but it’s hard not to at least want to write the kind of book you like reading, which will be informed by those authors you love most. Oh, except Drndić. She absolutely influenced me.

What kind of books do you like to read? What are you reading now?

I tend to mostly read difficult, surreal literary fiction. I like to be challenged, both intellectually and morally, by what I read. I also love books that dare to experiment with form, that try something new, even if it doesn’t necessarily work. Then there’s my predilection for what I call “literary sorbet,” books that I can just devour without thinking too much, just for the fun of it.

At the moment I’m reading Rachel Kadish’s The Weight of Ink and Olga Tokarczuk’s Drive Your Plows Over the Bones of the Dead.

What is the most valuable advice you’ve been given as an author?

No book is ever finished, just published. Be prepared to let it go.

What’s next? What project are you working on now?

I have a few books on the go, though haven’t committed to any of them yet as the project. Two are stylistically similar to The Book of Dirt in that they are based around true events and blur the fact/fiction divide. Then I have a linked series of speculative fiction novellas. And a kids’ book. But after spending eight years working on The Book of Dirt I’m mostly enjoying just taking a bit of a break and being a stay-at-home dad to my eighteen-month-old daughter. Just quietly, it’s way better than writing.



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